I have become physically
misshapen, so that I am no longer attractive to him. I am no longer
active and free, I can no longer go about with him; on the contrary,
I am a burden, and he is a man who never tolerated a burden before.
What this means is that I have lost the magic hold of sex.
"As a woman it was my business to exert all my energies to maintain
it. And I know how I could restore it now; there is young Dr.
Perrin! _He_ does not find me a burden, _he_ would tolerate any
deficiencies! And I can see my husband on the alert in an instant,
if I become too much absorbed in discussing your health-theories
with my handsome young guardian!
"This is one of the recognized methods of keeping your husband; I
learned from Lady Dee all there is to know about it. But I would
find the method impossible now, even if my happiness were dependent
upon retaining my husband's love. I should think of the rights of my
friend, the little doctor. That is one point to note for the 'new'
woman, is it not? You may mention it in your next suffrage-speech!
"There are other methods, of course. I have a mind, and I might turn
its powers to entertaining him, instead of trying to solve the
problems of the universe.
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